AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA OMG!!!!

50 lbs!!!! So this is what 50 lbs feels like. I tell you what it feels frickin amazing!!!!! Here is a pic. I have to go out now but I will be home later!!! wooo hooo!!!!

Tuesday Feb 19th 2008

So yeah I went to WI. I was down 1.4!!!! I am 1.8 lbs away from 50! To celebrate my loss I decided to get on my elliptical and was going to do 30 min and then was like no I will do 60 and then all of a sudden I wanted to see how long it would take me to get to 25 k. It took me 73 minutes which I am so freakin excited about!!!!!
I AM going to reach 50 lbs next week!! I AM. I am so pumped to get there and get fit and healthy!!!!

Sweating:)

I LOVE sweating!
It is invigorating and liberating. It is the smell (eww) or more so the feel of success. I was feeling crappy and down about this weight and the fact that it seems to want to hang onto my body because apparently my body seems to think that all is ending lol.
I just finished a 30 minute work out sweat session on the elliptical and I feel fantastic!!!!
My plan is to get on the elliptical tomorrow morning and Thursday morning before school so i have my alarm set for 6.. YIKES!! lol Let's hope that I can follow through with this.
My trainer wants me to do 5 cardio before I see her on Friday so I have 3 more to go and I have to do my routine once more!!! I am tracking my food and water and every bite lick and taste of anything. lol I want to make this work.


I want to see a lower number on the scale next week!!! Any lower number than the one that is there now.. lol

To be continued........

Is there really a need?

I am literally frustrated with myself and everything. It seems like I can't friggin win now. I want to see the 50 lb mark but I am so tired and it sucks. I am back on track (completely) as of yesterday. I tracked everything that I ate and today I am doing the same. I plan on going for a work out later and then I think I am going to clean my spare room. I want to have a treadmill so I need to make space to see if I can actually get one to fit into the room where I want it to go.
My body seems to be comfortable at this weight and I am trying to coax it to shed it but it seems to be content here. I however am NOT content here and want this weight GONE!!
Sigh, I hate winter. I seriously think that I am suffering from a case of the winter blahs and I hate it!!

BAH where is the sunshine and warm weather. Never mind the warm weather, just bring me the sunshine!!!!!!!!!!